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Tuesday, July 7th, 2009
2:53 pm	OK. AutoCAD is the best program ever. The end. (Comment on this)
Monday, July 6th, 2009
5:52 pm	fuck the what? Damn that ONE C from second quarter!!! my GPA is 3.66 now. Bleh. About to throw down another A though, I'm pretty sure. I think this year is going to go a lot better than last year! I am hoping anyway, but I feel a lot better and more confident, and I am super excited to start using CAD and exploring commercial design. It's like they said at the beginning, you will surprise yourself with what you get into compared to how you think you'll do at the start. When I started I was *so sure* I wanted to do residential design, and was pretty disinterested with commercial but now it's just the opposite. Actually I'd really like to do textile design or something like that. Specializing in tile layouts or cabinet layouts is also a strong possibility at this point. WE SHALL SEE. I need to start having in mind where I'd like to do an internship. That's only like 6 months away! *gulp* HRM anyways. so pain of salvation is off the prog nation tour, devastation ensues. been following it like a motherfucker to see if they finally make some dates for farther north than freaking LA. stopped paying attention for like a week, then go back to look last week and GASP. ugh. super annoying. ALSO its almost mah burfday. once again total fail for jas&ken anniversary AND b-day in taking evil antibiotics that make ne not able to drink any alcohol whatsoever. oh also i can't have sex either. someone kill me now. Current Mood: busy Current Music: DISRUPTOR! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 23rd, 2009
7:09 am	damn flash photography! when you're on the dance floor, feeling the pulse of the music, bumpin and grindin with your sweetie, you may think that in the cloak of darkness and the confusion of flashing colors and other bodies that you are concealed. screw finding a secluded spot! passion knows no social boundaries! but you forgot about flash photography. now you're in the background of snapshots of drunk chicks throwing up gang signs, getting people banned from facebook and what not. OH NOES. in other news, nacho cheese. lulz. (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 20th, 2009
11:06 am	some "fears" confirmed, and such. man, fuck, i don't want to write about that. it's stupid. I LAUGH AT MYSELF THOUGH. (ok no one knows what i'm talking about and years from now i probably wont BUT OK) i'm getting better financial aid for the coming school year than last year. isn't that badass? i know. i'm pretty stooooked. i don't think i need to even take out any loans. need to check with my mom though, because, she knows about that shit. i'm just a huge failure when it comes to college bureaucracy, thank god for my mom basically. also i think for one i didn't get selected for verification. at least it didn't say anything about it in the lil' packet i got yesterday. AMAZING. i keep trying to tell myself not get depressed that most of my friends just graduated. you know....on time....and stuff. i am a little bit though. however, there really isn't such a thing as "on time" is there? i did other stuff, stuff that was very important to my personal growth and happiness. right. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: strapping young lad (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 16th, 2009
4:19 pm	something has changed i'm not sure what's going on. i can feel myself growing distant and withdrawn. from everyone around me, even from myself. i have been filling my life with distractions and find it hard to care much about anything. my life is so different now from how it was a year ago. i wonder what is wrong with me? anyhow, i have finished my first year of my degree. hurray! it has gone so much faster than my long, horrible year at evergreen. i am halfway done now. it's hard to imagine that 9 months from now i will graduate and hopefully have a job. a real one...if not, i guess i will keep going to school, get my BA. I'm also considering going on to architecture school. I really like the more technical aspects of my courses, which is surprising to me...I think I will enjoy commercial design more in the coming quarters. Plus we get to use CAD, which I am happy for. creativity flows so much more easily with computers. no school for me until the 29th...ahh relaxation to the max...... hope jason and i can go to the lake once in the coming couple weeks......pleasies? i am hungry. Current Mood: pensive Current Music: devin townsend (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, June 8th, 2009
9:01 am	ideas. I lost my idea book, i'm guessing for real since even the great SEEKER jason cannot find it. this is utterly tragic. i need a new one, one that wont be easily lost, a new PERMANENT idea book. i thought about using lj as my idea book, but i don't want to make my genius plans available for others to plagiarize. so yes, a small personal idea book is best. really horrible losing that, i had months upon months worth of ideas in there. its very important that when my muse speaks to me i capture its essence, so that i may re tap it at a more convenient time. whenever i NEED an idea, it always eludes me. idea book is necessary for life. my stomach is really bothering me this morning, it feels tight and uncomfortable. gah... school. Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: total eclipse of the heart. (Comment on this)
Monday, June 1st, 2009
9:01 pm	POASTING gurgly stomach..... just ate a fuckin cinnamon roll. today i have eaten 2 krispy kreme donuts, a rockstar, a bowl of weird stir fry,a cinnamon roll, and a glass of soymilk. bout to make myself a rum and coke just because GOD DAMN I FEEL LIKE IT OK? (went to the doctor today, i gained 5 pounds!! lol!) Just applied for a night audit position at this hotel down on ruston. its part time, so i wont have to stay up all night EVERY night. may or may not fuck me over, but i kinda liked working night audit. plus fuck i need money so bad its not funny anymore. crying forever. ok gonan go cuddle jas now. Current Mood: calm Current Music: I WANT YOU TO SUFFER JUST LIKE ASHLEY (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 22nd, 2009
9:53 am	SCIENCE! Taking the magic out of romance. http://www.ted.com/index.php/talks/helen_fisher_tells_us_why_we_love_cheat.html No, not really, actually this is super interesting. (Comment on this)
9:17 am	cold(en) nipples yesterday i was tired, so i took a nap from about 8 until 11 15 ish. nto a good time for nap, because when i woke up, it was like, well wtf do i do now? jason was snoring again, so i just read random articles on snopes for about 3 hours. funnn..... woke up at 8 this morning feeling mostly good, so that was awesome. i feel like i might go for a bike ride today. really sluggish and gross. i fail at getting in shape for bikini season. i am going to get to go tanning soonish though. whenever the lotion arrives that we ordered online. its going to take for fucking ever though because the store we ordered from ONLY offers standard shipping. what the fuuuck. i'm almost done with my kitchen project. just need to make my concept board, which i actually really dread doing. it's like the hardest thing for me. i prefer designing and drafting to that part...mostly because of the chaotic nature of the samples room. if i had the ability to go all over to diff stores and stuff to look at finishes it would be more fun, i think, but i really just DON'T KNOW what i'm doing when it comes to that, so....i don't. i need a buddy for that, but someone who has a similar style to me. yeah. fail. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: nada (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 14th, 2009
11:09 pm	love this. lost in a moment from dennis wheatley on Vimeo. vimeo has the best videos. i really like this song. it reminds me of my grandma, i think she would have liked it. i wish i had asked her more things...sometimes......... i don't know. in a bizarre mood now. so happy and so sad at the same time. we swedes are the masters of contented melancholy. Current Mood: hmmmm Current Music: shrift! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 11th, 2009
5:32 pm	if you feel like i feel baby, come on, let's get it on. Need to go to CFM soon, but I also need gas in the jeep0la before I can pull that off. getting inspiration for kitchen project, found lots of cool websites. gonna go sweat at the gym and think about it :) Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: shiiiit (Comment on this)
Friday, May 8th, 2009
9:35 am	Of just being. While I was scrolling through the "artists" tab of my mp3 player, I had a little chuckle when I realized how ridiculously diverse the different music I had on there was. I never ever just listen to everything all the way through, I think that would be a little too weird. I'm not the kind of person that like just puts it on random and listens to whatever. NO. That will not do! I do have a "workout mix" of stuff I like to listen to when I'm working out, and that is sort of random. It's mostly 80's music, since it tends to be very high energy, therefore appropriate for exercising. ( a full list of the artists presently on there....for posterity! ) I find a few of the juxtapositions to be particularly amusing. I really don't know WHY I am amused by such things, but I am. Just thought I would share. In class I've been learning a whole bunch, this week. It's been really nice. For a while I was feeling like I was in a sort of suspended animation when it came to learning new material, and it was kinda freaking me out. I never know if that's my fault or I'm just not paying attention or what. I really enjoy learning new things, especially if I've been struggling with something only to find that there is a super easy way of doing it. MAN is that satisfying. I feel like things are really starting to come together in that class and the bridge I am building from amateur to professional is sturdy. Unfinished, yes, but with a strong foundation. Yes, many of my classmates are still TERRIBLY annoying, and at times my instructors are as well, but that is okay. For my instructors I know it is because they have perfected the fine art that is "bullshit" while I have let that particular skill wane in favor of honesty and openness (stupid move? probably). Bullshit is ESSENTIAL in the fields of sales and the creative arts alike, this is not a diss on anyone in anyway--I should know, I went to art school. Interior Design (really all design) combines art and salesmanship in such a way to maximize the bullshitting potential, so apparently I should start working on that again. As for the stupid questions, well, just have to put up with it I guess. I think Sunny has the patience of a saint, at times. HEY MOM if you are reading this, and I know you eventually will, conveniently in tandem with me eventually forgetting to ask you this question, which is why I am posting it here: who was that fat girl singing on the Carson Daly show that we saw the other day? I liked her stuff and I wanted to get some of her music. I mean apparently according to Kabby that cover was her best song, and I'll believe it, but I still want to look into it. OKAY. Find that out for me. PS no luck on the Nina Simone thing either :( I close with a joke: So... Descartes walks into a bar one day, and the bar-tender asks him, "Do you want a drink?" Descartes replies, "I think not." And with a pop of displaced air, he blips out of existence. Current Mood: calm Current Music: Oh, none for the moment. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 30th, 2009
8:12 pm	who invented the slow burning fire? yum. i'm attempting to "go off my meds" we'll see how this goes. yes..... life. is stupid. Current Mood: calm Current Music: the truth will set you free (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 25th, 2009
5:00 pm	the Degradation of the Panther Rug So, one of the relics I inherited from my relationship with Joel was this bitchin panther rug. He inexplicably let me keep it, which was rad, because I loved it. However, when I moved from that apartment, it really didn't fit in with my decor, and it was kind of too big, so I gave the rug to Rich. He took pretty good care of it, and it moved through 2 houses. When he moved out of his last house he left it to his roommate Rhys. That was the last I ever saw of the panther rug, and I was assured it would be well cared for as it should, because it is amazing and had been through so much over the past few years. For those of you who don't remember it, this is the panther rug: In all its glory, on moving day at my old apartment. Today I stupidly didn't go to Seattle as I planned, for reasons I don't care to go over again. I was sitting at my apartment bored and frustrated and without a car, when out of the blue my friend Matt Scott, whom until a few months ago I hadn't seen for years, sent me an instant message asking when we could hang out. Not expecting him to agree, I suggested today. He agreed, and then I found out that he lives just down the street from me! So I walked over to his apartment at Lakeside Landing. As I was walking in I was commenting how I used to (sort of) live in an apartment just like that one on the other side of the complex. Then I commented "Hey I used to have that exact same rug, too!" I had a funny feeling, so I asked where it came from, and sure enough, I traced the passing of the rug back to me. It was my old rug! But oh, it was in bad shape. I was devastated. I said I was coming back over next week to fix it up, because I couldn't stand to see it looking like that. I don't think I've ever seen a rug in such bad shape still beign used. It looks like it hasn't been vacuumed in forever, and it was all wrinkled up and randomly bunched under the furniture. I threatened to take it back if it wasn't fixed. I snapped a pic and sent it to Rich to share the amusement, which I will now post here. Oh tragedy..... Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: TRAPPED INSIDE THIS OCTAVARIUM (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009
12:44 pm	soon, oh soon the light OKAY so the other day I was all OH MAN you know what I haven't watched in an age? YES SYMPHONIC. So I dug out my crappy copy, dusted it off, and had it promptly start skipping and just die after like 5 min. Kill me. So I did what I intended to do years ago and *gasp* buy my own DVD!!! Welly well, I got it yesterday and joy of joys... Best concert dvd ever. Or close anyways. Top 3. Yes. YES. Went to Rainiers game with my parents yesterday. Gold Club yay! That means free beer and soda and pretzels and peanuts. UNLIMITEDLY! Awesome I know. Plus our tix were only $10 each! And I got the best ever garlic fries. I fucking love garlic fries whoa. Yeah, things have been good lately. Teriyaki with Ashley today. And maybe a surprise guest as well....o_0??? Not much else to say other than that D: just...oh god steel guitar solo bye. *cums* Current Mood: happy mems Current Music: gates of delirium (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 11th, 2009
9:42 am	There is a reason for everything. And there is a reason that "Landscape Designer" is a separate career from "Apartment maintenance dude" Current Mood: amused Current Music: total eclipse of the heart. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 7th, 2009
7:15 am	Dreaming of Mercy Street. I think it's time to retire you, old livejournal. I just don't have anything to say here anymore, and no one is listening anyhow. Nothing official just...not gonna really post very often. Life is sweet and the weather is pleasant finally. This calls for doing more interesting things. Since there's nothing more interesting EXACTLY at this moment while I wait for the dishwasher to be done, a little overview of.....................life in general ish. School is going OK. I'm feeling not as bad about not doing well in my last drafting class. I am still disappointed in myself because I know exactly where I went wrong, but I wasn't the only one. Normally, I don't really like to compare myself to others who are worse off than me in order to feel better. I have always been uncomfortable with those thoughts and they don't really work. I much prefer to compare myself to people who I admire and strive to be more like them in any way I can. That can be depressing, but at least it doesn't make me feel like an asshole. Anyway, the point is, I am now going to compare myself to people who are worse off than me in order to feel better. Not really like "well at least I'm not THAT guy" but more in the vein of "no one is perfect and I sure as hell am not, but at least I'm doing ok." I think that's working for me right now. The current class I am taking is boring as fuck, so hopefully I can maintain interest. The subject matter (history) is one I am very interested in, it's just the presentation that I don't like. Yesterday we had a lecture for 2 and a half hours, just on material out of the book. It's also a book we already read in 1st quarter, we're just focusing on the history aspect right now. What's stupid is that it gets dragged on and on and on by stupid fucking questions (most often its how to spell something that a) is in the book in front of you if you would just read along and b) is a word you're freaking retarded for not knowing how to spell HOW ARE YOU IN COLLEGE?!). This isn't out of the norm at all for this group of people, but it's extra annoying because WE ALREADY WENT OVER IT LIKE 5 MONTHS AGO. Then I feel like a jerk for working on other stuff at my desk just because I want to get work done. We're graded for being in lecture so....*sigh* Outside of school things.... The not very serious job search marches on. I really don't want to do a job I hate, because I'm pretty happy right now and something like that could easily crush my spirit. It's not necessary for me to work right now, so, I'm not being super hardcore about it. (Being hardcore is like, taking a job at taco bell or something). Desperate is a better word. I'm not that, thankfully. I have applied to a few places here and there, and did a bunch last week. Got nothing though. I was kind of secretly thinking that if I didn't have anything going on by summer I should go back to that junk place. I know at least one person who would be happy about that. At least Hal wont be there, you know? That's the most important thing. OH PS Hal is moving to Arizona apparently. The douche factor of the state of Washington will decrease by .5% upon his departure. Over the weekend I went to Seattle with Erik, which was fun. We only got a tiny bit lost, surprisingly. MY pro navigation skills got us there. We hung out for like half the day Saturday, and of course went to Wendy's. I actually got REALLY close to finishing my entire sandwich that time. That almost never happens. I've been eating a lot lately. Jason and I went to Abella's, and since we couldn't agree on toppings we just got our own pizzas, and I ate the whole thing. Minus like 3 crusts which I gave to Jason, but still! It's kinda catching up to me, so I gotta be sweatin' at the gym this week :D Sunday was an interesting day. It was REALLY random. And we drove an obscene amount. I don't really want to go into the details of what happened, but it doesn't even matter. Essentially we went hiking with my parents. It wasn't really a great time for most of it, but there was some good that came of the day's adventures. Basically Jason constantly blows my mind with his awesomeness. Every person should wish they had a partner as amazing as he is. Despite everything that went awry we managed to have a pretty good time by the end of it. He's just really good at calming me down and making me feel better when I am frustrated. Plus I really appreciate his willingness to participate in such things, even if sometimes stupid crap happens (like every park being closed and our dog being stupid as fuuuuuuuuuck). *HEY JASON LOVE YOU, YOU RASCALLY RASCAL!* So, it's a new week now and the weather is still nice (yay!). Now I am impatient for the pool to open. It opens 1st sunday in May, gooodddddddd so far away! Last year this happened....like....it was super nice all week leading up to the pool opening, and on the Saturday before it was like 90 degrees but they wouldn't open it. Then when it opened they had a big pool party with ice cream and stuff, but it was fucking raining and like 55. LOL. so Washingtonian. Yesterday I really could have gone for a swim. It was hot! I think it was like 76 or something. (People from CA, feel free to laugh). I went and got this gr8 DVD from Charlie yesterday after school and we hung out for a bit. Walked around downtown in the *blistering heat*. I guess we don't hate each other anymore or something, I dunno. We've hung out a handful of times lately and get along way better than we ever did before. It's pretty cool. He's moving to some mystery place (actually puyallup) at some mystery time (actually like a month) so the friendship is pretty temporary I suppose. That's just too far to go to hang out with an ex, lol. Also yesterday I drove down along Ruston and saw all the *cute dogs!*. I didn't really know what to do after I left downtown since Jason was probly going to be off work soon, so I just sorta aimlessly drove around for a bit. It was fucking RETARDEDLY crowded down there. I was considering getting some licorice ice cream, but there wasn't really anywhere to park. Plus there is no way I could eat one of those by myself. OH SON OF A BITCH ok this turned out way longer than expected and wtf. I need to shower before class shitshitshitshitshit. END! Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Big Puzzle (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 5th, 2009
10:53 am	Seriously? The only thing that would make this better would be if I had found it in the pharmacy. anyways, jason is really funny. Case in point: J: This is my favorite Tool album, as a whole. K: YOU'RE my favorite Tool album as a whole. J: You're my favorite tool, as a hole. K: *rofl* Fuckin, gonna go for a walk in a little bit cos nice day. Also I'm going to make SUCH YUMMY FOOD today holyfffuuusdhujshjhsv so excited. Been eating out too much lately. Time for me to get back in the kitchen. lawl. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: tewl. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, April 3rd, 2009
7:40 am	Damn you Bruce Springsteen. MORE THAN YOU COULD EVER KNOW. uh, anyways, so i hate my neighbors and erik right now for keeping me up until 3 fucking 30 in the god damn morning. thanks. thanks for that a LOT. no really. i love not sleeping. i love waking up in the morning feeling like killing myself because of how utterly shit i feel. its the best thing! i wish i could feel this every dayOHWAITIDO. FUCK. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: motherfucking bruce. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 2nd, 2009
10:24 pm	sing along! one of my fave songs to sing :) and listen to. and have exist. oh man best song ever. ok bye guys. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: THAT. (Comment on this)